Spotlight shinning. People watching. Camera ready. The light was blinking. My heart was pumping furiously. Breathing became more intensely. The sensation of throwing out came into my mind as I was sitting in front of the camera, thinking what to say.
How did this happen?
Situation:- Chris & I talking to my pastor after ENLI class. (To sum it all, it’s a class to equipped you to be a better minister for God) Suddenly the camera lady of my church came in.
Camera lady: Is this your first time in ENLI?
Chris: Yup.
Me: Nope, twice.
Camera lady: OK. I need you (as in me) to share something about the class. What have you gain from it? How is it so far? Need to take a video of it. Give you 10 minutes to prepare it. See you downstairs k.
Everything happened within seconds & I was unable to register it until Chris says “celebrity”. In my mind, I was like “Oh no. Not speaking to the camera. Not when the video will be played in the church over and over again. This is a nightmare.”
After thinking of what I wanna say, I went down, take my seat in front of the camera and started talking. But everything that I planned to say didn’t quite turn out well. My sentences were not in orders, words were repeated. I was stuttering, and after saying everything:
Camera lady: “OK good! (Which I think she said that to make me feel better). Now repeat it again”
Me: What? I can’t remember what I’ve said. It is not gonna be the same as just now.
Camera lady: Never mind. Just say.
Observer: Just share what you’ve learned from the class just now.
Then, the second shooting went on, and after everything, I felt so stupid and so embarrassed of what had just happened just now. That is not the way I want to the others to know me. The lousy guy with no substance in his sharing but with plenty of grammar errors. As I was coming home, the thought of the video playing during service over and over again to tell people about ENLI. Gosh feel like burying my head into the ground like an ostrich. What a way to end my week. A nightmare! I bet my heart will stop pumping and all my brain cells will undergo irreversible damage when the video is out. & I don't wish to be resuscitated unless they stop showing the video.
How did this happen?
Situation:- Chris & I talking to my pastor after ENLI class. (To sum it all, it’s a class to equipped you to be a better minister for God) Suddenly the camera lady of my church came in.
Camera lady: Is this your first time in ENLI?
Chris: Yup.
Me: Nope, twice.
Camera lady: OK. I need you (as in me) to share something about the class. What have you gain from it? How is it so far? Need to take a video of it. Give you 10 minutes to prepare it. See you downstairs k.
Everything happened within seconds & I was unable to register it until Chris says “celebrity”. In my mind, I was like “Oh no. Not speaking to the camera. Not when the video will be played in the church over and over again. This is a nightmare.”
After thinking of what I wanna say, I went down, take my seat in front of the camera and started talking. But everything that I planned to say didn’t quite turn out well. My sentences were not in orders, words were repeated. I was stuttering, and after saying everything:
Camera lady: “OK good! (Which I think she said that to make me feel better). Now repeat it again”
Me: What? I can’t remember what I’ve said. It is not gonna be the same as just now.
Camera lady: Never mind. Just say.
Observer: Just share what you’ve learned from the class just now.
Then, the second shooting went on, and after everything, I felt so stupid and so embarrassed of what had just happened just now. That is not the way I want to the others to know me. The lousy guy with no substance in his sharing but with plenty of grammar errors. As I was coming home, the thought of the video playing during service over and over again to tell people about ENLI. Gosh feel like burying my head into the ground like an ostrich. What a way to end my week. A nightmare! I bet my heart will stop pumping and all my brain cells will undergo irreversible damage when the video is out. & I don't wish to be resuscitated unless they stop showing the video.
1 comment:
What matters is what God will choose to speak to the people who hear what you said in the interview. I'm certain you were chosen to be interviewed for a reason, so don't worry, ppl will be encouraged and God will still you use what you said for a good purpose.In any case, I'm sure you didn't do thaatt bad. :)
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