My flesh & heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart & my portion forever!


Sunday, July 27, 2008

Normal state vs Fundamental state

"When we accept the world as it is (by living in the normal state), we deny our ability to see something better, & hence our ability to be something better. we become what we behold. what is not normal, is embracing the fact that another state exists."

-Prof Quinn (Building the Bridge as You Walk On It)

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Hand & Feet for Jesus!


It has been a fortnight since 2008 Hillsong Conference. It certainly has been a blessing moment for me. God really shaped my character & core being as a whole – enlarging it to prepare the way for His people.

I began this conference, fasting and knowing that God wanna realign my vision… Not knowing most of the speakers that were coming this year, there weren’t any expectations. As the conference begins, God constantly reminded about “JUSTICE” “POVERTY” “COMPASSION”… I know my heartbeat is to reach out to the young people, so the poor & needy never cross my mind. Not that I don’t feel for them, but this issue never compelled me to move “the other side of the road”. I told God, “Yes, I know about these people, tell me more. Enough telling me about them!” I sorta avoid/run away from these 3 words God constantly placed in my heart.

I remembered this pastor mentioning this verse:-

Mat25: 34"Then the King will say to those on his right, 'Come, you who are blessed by my Father; take your inheritance, the kingdom prepared for you since the creation of the world. 35For I was hungry and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you invited me in, 36I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick and you looked after me, I was in prison and you came to visit me.'

37"Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? 38When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? 39When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?'

40"The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'


“God’s heart is always with the poor. If you wanna serve God & not involve these people that He cares, You are not serving God!”


That statement spoke to me deeply. God cares for these people so much, and if I wanna serve Him & please Him but not think/care/remember/consider/do something for those who are in needs & living in poverty, I am not serving God. If I sing “break my heart for what break Yours” and not doing so, then God’s heartbeat is not my heartbeat.


Felt that, for now I should just “do” it… If it pleases God, I’ll do so, and I know as I continue to serve Him in this area, I believe He will cultivate this heartbeat in me. He will break my heart & make me fall in love with these people.


Gal2: 20I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.


This conference speaks to me about “Loving God & Loving His people!” Never less than that. Felt that it is much more impactful than the previous conference, and the conviction really shaped my heart to be more like Him. I thank God for the good start & I am excited to be a hand & feet to extend His kingdom.

Monday, July 07, 2008

Prepare the way!


Mark1: 2It is written in Isaiah the prophet:

"I will send my messenger ahead of you,
who will prepare your way"—
3"a voice of one calling in the desert,
'Prepare the way for the Lord,
make straight paths for him.'


I am still learning that it is never about me transforming lives, or never about me impacting the lives of others. It is ME MAKING WAY for God to do that. It is ME setting the environment right for God to move. Our part is to path the way for His Spirit to move among the people we lead. Say Urban Life – it is up to us to stir up an atmosphere of praise & worship so that everyone is in such a conducive environment to encounter God. Even trying to reach out to our friends, all we need to do is bring them to church, & let God’s presence impact them.

What are some of the ways that you can prepare for Him to move? A phone call? A house visit? A word of encouragement? Or simply just buying a friend a gift? It’s not always spiritual. It’s just being practical at times and meeting the needs of the people around us.

Something that God really spoken to me lately through Ps Matt – I was telling him that “we can bring the horse to the water, but we can’t make the horse drink” & he says, the key to this statement is “we gotta make the horse really thirsty. Then regardless whether we lead them to the water, they will automatically go around looking for water to drink because they ARE THIRSTY.” I was like SO TRUE!!! Also praying that God will give me to wisdom to this matter.

Saturday, July 05, 2008

He keeps on coming!

Favour, favour, favour!!!

That’s all I can say from our great & awesome God! Why?

I just finished exams last Wednesday and freedom from books, revisions, medicine is really fantastic… Just waking up doing nothing, or walking around the city without studies in my mind… All medical students understand how I feel now.

But let me tell you what happened on my Long case (this is the exam part, where we are required to spend an hour with a patient, find out why they are in the hospital and examine them, then formulate all your information and present the case to 2 doctors and they get to ask you all sort of questions regarding the patient or nothing at all) last Wednesday.

To start off, I left my house at 9.45am for my 11am session. It sounded a lot of time there, since the time to Austin Hospital takes about 40mins, but when I reached the train station, I was 4 mins away before my train arrives. Relieved! Then I look at the next train time, and it’s 30 mins later. I was like, THANK GOD! If I miss this train, I will certainly be late for my exam – which is a big NO NO!

Next, while I was doing my long case, I was interrupted by a social worker for a while. I thought, “Gosh, I’m gonna waste some time here, but anyway, it’s good to hear what she is going to say to the patient” So, I sorta copied down what she mentioned as part of my issues to be discussed later with the examiners. After she left, the invigilator came and told me I have 10 mins left. In my mind, I thought it was time since 1 hour has passed. So, my heart was like “Wohoo!” But this is the funny part; few mins later she returned to tell me that I get extra 5 mins since I was interrupted earlier. I was like, “Common God!” Apparently the other patients in the ward went to complain to my invigilator, asking her to give me more time since it wasn’t fair that I was interrupted. HOW AWESOME IS OUR GOD!

The rest was great as well… My patient was very cooperative. She was clear & given me all the information needed. My examiners, I thought they asked difficult questions which I couldn’t answer some, but overall, thought I went in with confident & answered the questions the best I could. So, yah my Wednesday was just favour after favour from God!

Gen28:15 “I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you."