My flesh & heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart & my portion forever!


Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Right relationship with God!

KNOW Him
LOVE Him
SERVE Him
TRUST Him
FEAR Him
Some people will ask us, "who is Jesus?" & Most Christians will answer "He's the Son of God, our Saviour!"... As much as we can say we know Him, & how much we love Him when we sing songs of praises & worship, how many people out this category will actually serve & trust Him whole-heartedly? I myself won't say I am 100%.
Most people just play a role as a church-goer. But God's command doesn't end there. One has to be a DOER too. Speaking from medical students point of view, many will say that the amount of time spent to do God's work can be put into studies. Even an hour can be so previous when comes to exam's season. Some will say, "Don't wanna join the ministry, cause need to go back to church to practice... Need to study la! Darn stress!" But do we realise that we actually nullify God's greatness & His power to do the IMPOSSIBLE. As much as we worship God so passionately during service, singing songs about trusting God (can't think of any songs at the moment) , but do we actually "walk the talk"?
Jesus in His last words didn't say "Don't worry. Just come to church every weekend. & Make sure you study hard during weekdays ok?" nor did He ever say "Don't worry about the ministry. There are other people that are going to do that. You just study k"... Instead He said it CRYSTAL CLEAR in matt28 "Go & make disciples of all nations" .. But do we?
Look up on the dictionary. It says trust = Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. But is our reliance firm? The Bible speaks loudly about God's character, being the provider, who gives us strength & bless us with all our needs. Not that we can't understand the Bible, we just don't practice what we read. As much as doctors need practical in order to be a good, christians need to exercise their faith too in order to please Him!
1John2:3We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands. 4The man who says, "I know him," but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. 5But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: 6Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Unnecessary Business most are doing!

This is a post about typical malaysian drivers that can't mind their own business when they are on the road.

Last Monday, after CSU I decided to go home since its around 4+pm & the sky is kinda dark. Don't wanna get stuck in the jam, especially when it rains later. As I was approaching cheras area, guess what I saw from far? This properly lined vehicles, with all their back red lights on, queuing through the highway. MASSIVE JAM. I was like, darn it! Must be an accident. Here, thought I was smart enough to go back early in order to break the traffic. Some people just have to drive recklessly & got into an accident. (I wanted to rush home so that I can study for my exam on Wednesday)
As I began to approach part of the road when the jam began to subside, to my great suprise, I found that the accident was at the opposite of the road. I WAS LIKE, WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE MALAYSIANS? Here, at my side of the road, motorcyclist stopped by the road side to see. Some cars parked at the side of the road, I ASSUME they went across to help. & the remaining cars passing that area, DECIDED TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH THE ACCIDENT & STARTED SLOWING DOWN & TURN THEIR KAY-POH-CHEE (busybody in cantonese) HEAD TO TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED!
In my mind, I was thinking, these people, being the TYPICAL malaysians not even helping in the accident, but participating in witnessing it so that when they go back home, they can tell the incident to their love ones, or worst, after passing the accident area, they went on their journey with an empty mind. Don't they realise that they are holding all the cars back, causing massive unnecessary traffic jam! Causing unnecessary petrol combustion which further contributes to environmental hazards! Most important of all, they are wasting every other people's time, ESPECIALLY MINE!
Here's some tips what you should do if you see an accident & you don't feel like helping out (Helping out means get out of the car & help the victims not sit by the roadside & watch)
1.Tell yourself it is none of my business!
2. Don't have the slightest idea of pressing your break to slow down & look at the side. Look in front instead. Chances are, you will bang the car in front of you if you are so involved with what happened at the other side of the road. Then you will cause another massive unwanted traffic jam, & causes you $$$ to fix your vehicle.
3. Press your horn to tell the people who is slowing down in front of you to keep moving.
4. If you have the urge to "check-out" what happen, refer to point 1 & 2 again. Tell yourself that if the accident is major enough, you will catch it in the news at night or "the star" tmrw morning. If it is not reported, chances are the accident is minor & it is not worth your time knowing. Hence, in future, remember this important point.
I think in terms of accident watching, its gonna be MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Sunday, June 11, 2006

A NEW LIFE!

A NEW LIFE!

NOV 2005- During church camp


There was a water baptism session during the camp. I really wanna be baptised, but at the same time I wanted my parents consent before committing into it, cause I really wanna honour them.

Me:- (calling my parents) Hello, can I be baptised today?
Dad:- No, don't do that now. Just go and have fun. Do it some time later.
Me:- But why? ...... (Me explaining & reasoning to my dad)

At the end of the conversation, I still didn't manage to get him to approach.


End of May 2006 - While having breakfast with my parents


Been praying about this since church camp. So recently, when i found out that we're gonna have another water baptism session on this date, I took up the courage to ask my parents again. Before asking, I was asking God to help me make them understand, let them realise how important it is to me.

Me:- I've something I wanna ask you all.
Parents:- What is it?
Me:- My church is gonna have another session for those who wish to be baptised. Can I too?
Parents:- I knew it!!! Knew what you wanna ask when you start asking like that way (I was like erm.... in a "where got?" facial expression). No, don't do it now. Wait til you graduate.
Me:- Why? It's important that I do it now. I know I am ready. Really wanna be baptised here, in this spiritual family. Here is where I came to know Christ & here is where I grow. Plus, I am really connected with this spiritual family. It is my last chance this time. I'm gonna leave next year. I really don't wanna miss this opportunity.
Parents:- Didn't we said you can only do it once you graduate. Maybe you will have a different exposure when you go oversea. Maybe over there, they do it differently. It is good to wait.
Me:- It's not gonna change anything if I wait til I graduate. I've already accepted Christ. There's no way I will turn back. Plus, water baptism is done the same way everywhere. The significance is the same.
Parents:- If that's the case, go do it & don't let me know if you wanna do it so much. Since you converted without discussing with us anyway.
Me:- I really want to, but don't you understand, I want your consent. I want you to understand why it is important for me. If I wanna do as you have just said, I could have done it during church camp. But I didn't. I really wanna honour you. That's what the Bible says.

Conversation just ends there. With the same answer. Was kinda disappointed at first. I began asking God, why? Is it not time yet for me? Prayers still continue. It's too early for any changes yet. Believe He is gonna make a twist when the date starts to draw closer. After breakfast, I drove to uni.


This week while having breakfast with my dad
(As you begin to notice, most of the conversation takes place during a meal, over breakfast time especially. This is because it is the start of the day, where all the mood & energy level are still at the optimum level. & that is the time where I get to talk cause there are no distractions for my parents. So, I could get full attention from them)


Dad:- (While I was busy eating my beef noodles, yummy!!!) So, when's your water baptism thing?
Me:- This sunday. Why?
Dad:- If you think you are ready, go ahead.
Me:- (Me, in my usual shocking look( if I have any) ) Er, are you sure? What made you change your mind? I don't want you to say it because you saw me feeling upset and so on. I want you to get it.
Dad:- If you said you are ready, go get baptised. You're gonna do it sooner or later anyway.
Me:- Thanks alot. It means a lot to me.

I was so happy at that news. Really thank God for such a great miracle. If you know my dad well, he is a person with a very strong opinion on himself, especially in terms of Christianity, worse when I began to accept Christ. It definitely take a DEVINE CHANGE for him to make such a decision. After breakfast, I took off to uni, singing songs of praises! God did answer my persistent prayer! Quickly messaged Shawn.

Today, IT IS DONE. Chris came along with me saying he wanna witness one of my life's millstones. 18 of us got baptised. Was a great moment for me. PRAISE YOU LORD!

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

X-MAN!!!

Situation 1
Saw a colleague C coming from opposite direction while on my way to library. Decided not to be such a snob. So, I waved & said "HI" when C looked at me. In response to that, C looked at me for a while & turned away without a reply. I was so suprised of that encounter that I stood in front of the library for a while, thinking what had just happened. I thought to myself maybe C didnt hear me, or didnt notice me. In the end, didnt bother & just went in to library to study.
Situation 2
Wai Meng & I just finished lunch. Decided to head back to the library ( ok, you guys must be thinking I am this super duper nerd guy, which i am not.. the reason why i keep going to library is bcoz exam is around the corner) and as we were walking, I saw C again coming from the opposite direction. Being born with a nice heart, I decided to wave & say "HI" again, this time, clearer & louder just to see if C will respond. He did actually, by looking at me, & turn away again without any reactions what-so-ever.
I don't think that people will to hate me to the point of ignoring me in such an obvious way. Not many ppl will be so brave to do so. Moreover I hold such a low profile in uni, I don't think I create enough friction for ppl to hate me. Either that, or this C person must be super blur or lagging in response. I think I've learned my lesson & will know how to proceed in future when I see C again.
C, YOU'VE BEEN "X"!!!!!!!!

Friday, June 02, 2006

From East Malaysian Synd to Sabahan Congenital Distorted Mind Synd!!!

OK. This blog is typed to address the misfortunate, shallow mindset of the east malaysians towards the west malaysians. Apparently they are still stuck in "their laid-back generation".

Firstly, about the "chi ku pa" thingie. I think the sabahan especially have the wrong interpretation of that term. IT IS AND I MAKE IT CLEAR ONCE AGAIN "CHI KU PA"... not because of the lousy HK ppl using that term, but rather, it is the common term. set aside the way of opening your fingers. You guys renamed it out of convenience. Even the sarawakians use "chi ku pa".. The entire malaysian uses that except for the sabahan. Well, can you see the difference? Are they really right about their term of "ku chi pa"? or are they congenitally confused or "serong"? I guess for Steph & Jeremy who are proud to be sabahan, should look into this point before voicing their so called "true opinion".. plus, this game was invented by chinese. chinese being superstitious, will nvr start a game by calling "ku" simply means your ku-ku bird(those who doesnt know this term, go ask your male chinese friends)

Another thing that i wanna bring up is KLCC.... well, it is true that we hired foreign engineers for such construction. but think again, we have the capability & ability to do that. but do Sabahan generally have? whats the point of having the 100% genuine highest mountain in SEA which contribute less to our country, comparatively to KLCC, WORLD (mind you) TALLEST TWIN TOWER BUILDING.... can you see the difference? its WORLD... NOT SEA...... plus, the contribution that KLCC has towards malaysia.. it really put malaysia in the eyes of the world, declaring that we malaysians too can support such developments like countries such as United States, Singapore, Hong Kong, Japan, etc.... if it is not because of such sky-scrapers like KLCC, the lousy whites will be still wondering where malaysian is located, or are we so "3rd world" that we still use black & white tv.... besides being the HQ for Petronas, KLCC is also a home to the best shopping complex in malaysia. the convention centre is the center-point of so many meetings and organisations in the world. can you tell me which corner of sabah has such great capacity to host such a big economic development to the country, and to the world? So what if you guys have mt kinabalu.. i dont deny it does contribute to the tourism in this country, but comparatively speaking.... which is of higher value to this country? furthermore steph, your lousy mountain has BEEN CONQUERED! i stood above the mountain. but did anyone ever stood above KLCC? if yes, correct me...

As for the shopping malls, i dont wanna talk about it.. any primary school kid will know where you guys get your retails from.. KL... the reason why there's a market for so many branded retails in sabah is because of kl.. it is thru here that everything starts expanding..

& if the sabahan speak so highly of themselves, why come over to west malaysia to study... for job opportunity.. one of my sabahan friends argued.. there's no private medical school in sabah.. thats so true... firstly, the investor dont even wanna waste time setting up such school at such an obscure place... 2ndly, if you are so pro-sabah, why come to kl... find every ways to get into your UNIMAS..(btw it is kinda nice place to study medicine compared to IMU)... why rely on kl's education & job opportunities?

development in sabah is still way back... only recently that you guys gain the title of a "city".. this shows that the lack of faith in the government for so long... holding back and thinking that you guys couldnt take the workload once the BIG CITY WORD is placed on top of kota kinabalu... you guys still live with your less than 3 sec tunnel, pathetic highways which are smaller than the mainroads in kl, reclaimed lands, no coffee bean outlets.... you guys still travel by hugging the logs at kinabatangan while we start to modernise area around Klang river...

as for the island, i cant comment on both coz i nvr been to all islands in west malaysia & sipadan in sabah... so no point in discussing this matter.... plus, whats the point of going thru so many troubles to dive & enjoy the marine life, where we can just experience the same thing in aquaria KLCC without being wet... why so dumb... why sabah still stuck in their "old-age mentality"... common, if you wanna keep up with our prime minister vision of vision 2020, you guys have to start to change.. make a stand & put to death all the old distorted thinking.. the generation in sabah think like you guys bcoz there's no change since beginning.. it causes a congenital mindset in every individual in sabah...

Here i rest my case..
(this blog was posted not to go against the sabahan but rather, to make clear to some of my sabahan friends some of my point of view. those sabahans who think that the facts stated are wrong, do share.. I am open to discussion.. but this post is targeted to one of my close friend steph wong)