Memories!!!!

Chuen & Me after her party.... Men in blacks & whites & with odd colours here & there...
Chuen with the dancers....
Mark & Chuen...
Ultraman fantasy?

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CHUEN!!!!

A simple bubble tea,
that was all it need.
To start a great friendship,
that last til this date.

We often ask,
at moments such as this,
what are the best words to say,
on such a memorable day.

I know I made it obvious,
& it was clear for most to see,
that those days just ain't the easiest,
moments for me.

But you've helped me thru' the fall,
& I always know you care,
but most important of all,
you've always been there.

I know it was not easy,
listening to me cry,
but i don't think you know what it means to me,
to have you by my side.

You've guided me thru' the tunnel,
til I see the light,
& it's nice to know there's someone,
who would share the burden of my fight.

Why I'm blessed with a friend like you,
this i never know.
But I thank God everyday,
for letting a friend like you, to come my way.

As time past, separate we may go.
The seasons change & it will show.
I will age & so will you,
but our friendship remains, strong & true.

This poem marks my friendship to you,
on such a day specially for you,
here's a promise I make to you,
that I'll always be there for you.


Thanks chuen & God bless you.

Dead poor!

Here lies a truly poor being

born poor, raised poor,

remained poor & died poor.

Poorly he lived & poorly he died;

maintaining status quo was his only pride.

Came across this poem was i was flipping through the Malaysia Medical Assoc magazine as I was waiting for the next patient during my GP posting with Dr. Anthony. Thank God, I am no where near what the poet describe.

Let's X-cavate!!!

Who am I

Tell me why

I am here for

coz sometimes I'm lost

Who will give

Me a lift

When I'm feeling weak

It's your strength I need

Before the world began

You were on His mind

To love Him & be loved by Him

Oh, what a sweet relief

Why am I--still worrying today?

Why should I-- let sorrow stay

Come let's be strong & courageous

Because, He has given

JOY PEACE LOVE and

STRENGTH to last for the day

His mercy new everyday

Sufficient, Your grace is amazing

Oh thank You Father

For the mighty cross

So that I am Yours

Mighty child of God

That is the theme song for this year's CF camp. The camp was all about rediscovering ourselves, hence X-CAVATE!!! It was held in MBS Rawang for past 3 days. Around 60+ IMU-ers attended the camp. Throughout this camp, friendship had been made. Team spirit had been built. But best of all, God's voice was made clear!!!

The speaker shared this verse:-

1Pet2:9But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.

It says we are God's chosen people. Each of us today, having a relationship with God because He chose to start a relationship with us first. We didn't make the call. He did. He is so merciful & kind to us. He chose each of us just as we are. A sinner who didn't know what sin is & who lived in a lifestyle so compromising to the pattern of the world. But now, we are no longer bounded by sin. He paid the final price at calvary. Now we are His people, with immediate excess to Him. We can talk to Him anytime, anywhere. Our identity is found in our creator!

Nevertheless, we also become a mediator between God & the non-believers, introducing them to God. Our purpose now is to glorify Him & our mission on earth is to do what God wants us to do; which is to make disciples. That is God's calling in our life. We are the salt & light for this world. We are the one who shine the path & lead people to God. As christians, we all know this. We hear it from our leaders, sermons & friends. But the Bible says :-James1:22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.

It made me wonder, am I doing what God calls me to do. Am I doing on my own strength or relying upon Him to open the way? Did I make full use of the opportunity He has given me?During devotion, someone shared: "I just wonder if God is pleased with me?" This question really stucked in my head til now. During worship, God's love & sacrifice began to hit me. His grace & blessings ran in my mind once again. I asked Him, "Why do you love us so much?" "What did we do to deserve such an amazing grace?" Slowly, I began to weep. It just remind me that His grace is sufficient for me. Nothing else matter. If I didn't get what I want, maybe God thinks that it is not suitable for me, or it is not time for me to have it, or maybe He is putting me through another challenge to refine my faith. Whatever the outcome is, I believe it is best for me.

But now, I should start X-cavating myself. Am I carrying out His mission?

In Christ Alone!

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This Cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My Comforter, my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

‘Til on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life’s first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

‘til He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

We can celebrate every day of our lives because of what Christ did for us on the cross 2000 years ago.

John11: 25Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; 26and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

Reminiscence - in the happening hotel, JW Marriott!

It all began here...

Nice ambience!!!

Remnants of PM2....
Great brothers in Christ!!!
M204 - The bold & beautiful

Yunny hunny bunny & I Prom Queen of 2006 aka Miss Johor aka Christine... banyak gelaran
Me Steph & Chun Peng
Reminiscence of C2-11-1
Jennifer, Agony Aunt, Me, Rose, Li Yeen & Se Yin
Jennifer & I
La Yin, Se Yin, Christine, Me & Li Yeen
Beauty of Starhill at midnight
Stary Stary Night.....

Wai Meng, Me & Phuay Fhern

Everything starts from the "mind"!!

Sow a thought, reap a word

sow a word, reap an action

sow an action, reap a habit

sow a habit, reap a character

sow a character, reap a destiny

Whether we are aware or not, whatever thought, opinion, desire, etc that we have, first go to our mind before it comes into action. The mind is the determinant! It is the decision maker. & our mind defines us. Although our mind has great power & control over us, it is also one of the most vulnerable part in us. It also has so much freedom, that it opens itself to various opinions that eager and constantly to speak to it. These opinions eager to make themselves known to our mind, trying their best to convince our mind into believing them. Hence, our mind is also very sensitive & easily contaminated. If our mind conforms to the wrong idea, it will leads us to destruction.

That is why, it is important for us to have a right mind. & Mark 5:15 says "When they came to Jesus, they saw the man who had been possessed by the legion of demons, sitting there, dressed and in his right mind; and they were afraid." So, the only way to have a right mind is through Jesus. Constantly ask Him to keep our mind right, to keep track of our mind's progress & keep our mind focus to His will so that we will prosperous in everything we do!

Nightmare!

Spotlight shinning. People watching. Camera ready. The light was blinking. My heart was pumping furiously. Breathing became more intensely. The sensation of throwing out came into my mind as I was sitting in front of the camera, thinking what to say.

How did this happen?

Situation:- Chris & I talking to my pastor after ENLI class. (To sum it all, it’s a class to equipped you to be a better minister for God) Suddenly the camera lady of my church came in.

Camera lady: Is this your first time in ENLI?
Chris: Yup.
Me: Nope, twice.
Camera lady: OK. I need you (as in me) to share something about the class. What have you gain from it? How is it so far? Need to take a video of it. Give you 10 minutes to prepare it. See you downstairs k.

Everything happened within seconds & I was unable to register it until Chris says “celebrity”. In my mind, I was like “Oh no. Not speaking to the camera. Not when the video will be played in the church over and over again. This is a nightmare.”

After thinking of what I wanna say, I went down, take my seat in front of the camera and started talking. But everything that I planned to say didn’t quite turn out well. My sentences were not in orders, words were repeated. I was stuttering, and after saying everything:

Camera lady: “OK good! (Which I think she said that to make me feel better). Now repeat it again”
Me: What? I can’t remember what I’ve said. It is not gonna be the same as just now.
Camera lady: Never mind. Just say.
Observer: Just share what you’ve learned from the class just now.

Then, the second shooting went on, and after everything, I felt so stupid and so embarrassed of what had just happened just now. That is not the way I want to the others to know me. The lousy guy with no substance in his sharing but with plenty of grammar errors. As I was coming home, the thought of the video playing during service over and over again to tell people about ENLI. Gosh feel like burying my head into the ground like an ostrich. What a way to end my week. A nightmare! I bet my heart will stop pumping and all my brain cells will undergo irreversible damage when the video is out. & I don't wish to be resuscitated unless they stop showing the video.

Sweet Moments during the Org Asli invasion! :-) We spiced up their church with their drawings after having "Art Session" with them.. Cintai Yesus!!!!
The view of Kg Jangkap..
Crossing the river during our hike to Kg Jangkap....
Mr. Loklot's wildboars being lazy... ok, they are not the best delicacy ever.. don't know why my parents kept saying they taste nice with curry..
Left to Right :- Jennifer Chan, Vickie Chiong and Me On a Hilux...
Me & Hendrick jr.. hehehe
The last day:- we made it to edge of the forest after about 2 hours of bumpy ride behind a toyota hilux..
A thank you card drawn by S. Feng... All of us gave each other new names... :-)
Yeah!!! We finished building the church platform.. ok, we didnt like build it entirely on our own.. but we did help them out.. this was our "hotel" for 2 nights.. awesome eh..
OK.. we really love the church platform!!! Now it comes with stairs...
The pondok on our way into the forest... This is the only place "out of civilisation" where there's phone reception...

10 things i learned from the org asli trip!

1. I survived drinking river water. The water is clear, but don't expect it to be particles free.

2. Wildboar meat is not a very good delicacy. They prepared it for us for breakfast, together with mihun. The meat is black in color, and it has some kind of smell.

3. The orang asli are very nice and friendly. They provided good hospitality and served us with a lot of food that we cannot finish. Oh yah, they will wait for us to finish our meals before they eat. Every morning, when I wake up and go out, I was greeted by their smiles. Really refreshing to see this.

4. I ate my first tapioca. Also tried their rice. It’s reddish black in color. Don’t fancy it too.

5. Most of the kids can't speak BM, but when you passed by their villages, they will shout "hallelujah!" It was amazing to experience that even though they don't know so many stuff, like language and work and hygiene, but they know who Christ is.

6. Org asli are great worshippers of God. All of us were impacted when they began worshipping God even though everything was in BM. This shows that God's influence is beyond culture barriers. During sermon, you can see the men opening their Bibles, taking notes and sitting on the floor in front of the pastor, hearing the Word of God. One hand will be busy writing; the other will be holding their torch lights. We are so impacted by their faith and love for Christ.

7. I learned how to take shower in 3 dives and 2 scrubs at the river. First dive is to wet myself. Then wash my hair. Another jump into the river. Out and apply foam bath all over me. Last jump and I'm clean! Fastest shower ever :-)

8. 2 hours trip behind a Toyota Hilux was a pain in the ass because the trunk road was bumpy but it was fun and a great experience.

9. They lived in houses made out of bamboos and tree trunks. The main living room is the kitchen (where the fireplace is located) and it is very cozy at night. We helped them built the church platform that collapsed.

10. They need a lot of help from the outside world, in terms of food, electricity, tools, vaccination, and health awareness. The younger kids are undernourished and have kwashiorkor.


Life in Kg Jangkap is so relaxing, and so easy-going. They only work when needed. At night, they will group together and play the guitar and chat under their houses. I really miss being there with them, talking to them and mandi sungai together. Felt really blessed. Looking for more visits in future.

Eye opener!!

“Retractor… Gauze”

“Beep… Beep… Beep…”

“Wash… Suction…”

Those are the sounds you will hear when you are in the operation theatre (OT). For the past few days I’ve been posted to the Breast & Endocrine Department of Surgery in General Hospital KL. It was an awesome experience. Following doctors and hearing them attending patients and discussing cases among one another, really opened a new door into my life as a medical student. And you know you have that kind of thinking that government doctors being lousy, crappy, non-caring, just wanna clear off their patients… Well, the doctors that I tagged along aren’t like that at all. They are very nice and patient to their patients.

One of the housemen was kind enough to show me the proper way of examining a woman’s breast and allow me to “practice” (so to speak) on some of the patients. I got a chance to palpate a lumpy breast, which was kinda cool. The doctor explained and taught me a lot. As for the other doctors you may wonder, they totally ignore you. One thing I’ve learned, you must be super thick skin and ask them whatever that comes in your mind and follow them wherever they go. Even when they hinted that they want you to go away, you just act stupid and stick to them. This is how I’ve survived for the past few days with them. Whatever they say, pretend you didn’t get them and you have to swallow your pride when they said something unpleasant to you.

Hang out in the OT most of the time, checking their charts on which OT has interesting cases going on. Then we will just walk in & stand at the side & observe whatever the surgeons were doing. One of the surgeons from UPM was kind enough to guide us through the operation. I think I’ll just look for him whenever he has a surgery going on next week. Managed to see cases like mastectomy, herniotomy, gastro-jejunotomy, laparoscopic gastric carcinoma, laparoscopic cholecystectomy, rectal adenocarcinoma, total thyroidectomy, and fistula in anal operation. It was darn interesting to be able to see the anatomy “live” since IMU doesn’t provide us with any post-mortems, dissections and stuff. Only plain models which are so “helpful”.

Watching Grey’s Anatomy & being attached to a surgical department really draw my interest to become a surgeon one day. It is more exciting than being a consultant or normal physician. And you don’t have to wear formal clothes & shoes with tie. Just the normal blue surgical attire which is so comfortable. J One thing bad about this is, you have stand for hours. At the end of the day, you can barely feel your legs. Have one week to go. Hope there will be more actions going on in GHKL!!!

The truth vs another opinion...

You guys must be wondering, what is this all about. Is this another post about Christ again? Well, I can’t help it, because my life revolves around Him. Listen, many have said:

“How sure are you the Bible is true? Why can’t it be another opinion since it was written by human beings?”

“Don’t you think that there’s a possibility that the Bible is another book that some people compiled to try to win others to listen to the compiler?”

“If J. K. Rowling was born 2000 years ago & write 6 books of Harry Potter, don’t you think that she will be as famous as Jesus Christ, & every reader will believe what she says in the book?”

“Okay, I may agree that Jesus did a great job, saving us from sins. He has a nice heart, but how can you be sure that He is God?”

“If someone is able to go back to the past, & try to talk to the people then about the life now or try to spread some propaganda, do you think they will believe him as God like how they believe Jesus’ disciples when they tried to tell them about salvation?”

“Let’s say that in future, there is another someone who comes up and tells us that he is the truth and he is “God”, will you believe him and follow him? If you think he is wrong, how can you be so sure? Can’t the Bible be wrong too? It might be….”

See, the questions will continue to come up, whether you like it or not. People will start questioning your faith, will start asking about existence, and will insist that the Truth must be proven scientifically. I came from that background too. Being once an atheist, I always mock my friends who are trying to share with me. Somehow someway, I will be able to explain through what are they telling me about God. In the end, they realized that they came to a point that there is no point continuing to explain to me, and I have to experience God myself. Well, I told them I agree, and things came up which lead me to slowly begin to seek God and now, here I am.

2Tim3:16 All Scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness, 17 that the man of God may be complete, thoroughly equipped for every good work. (NKJV)

Now guys, hear me out. Although the Bible is written by humans, but everything inside is God-breathed. I checked the word inspiration in dictionary.com and it means “divine guidance or influence exerted directly on the mind and soul of humankind”. I guess it explains it all. Plus, if you say it’s another opinion or some “brainwash book”, do you think God will allow something that is false to circulate throughout the years? Do you think He will allow something that is not right to reach us and mislead us? Think again before you start questioning back. For those who’ve read the Bible, is there anything inside it that leads you to destruction? Is there anything that tells you to do the wrong things? With a conscience mind, I’m sure you guys will know what is right and wrong, and so far the Bible hasn’t say anything besides the right way to live. And if there’s a single thing that is wrong in the Bible, I believe God will put a stop.

Furthermore, the Bible is written by witnesses of God. Take the New Testament for example, they are written by the first witnesses of Christ. James, Paul John, Matthew. They are all in Jesus’ time. If you think they did this just to win someone’s heart, or to be influential, you must be wrong. Do you know how much the first generation Christians went through when they were trying to spread the Truth? Some were prosecuted, some were jailed, and others were ridiculed. Jesus himself was crucified for spreading the Word of God. Do you think someone will just go through all those tortures just to win some influence from the people? Think again people. No one is that mental to do so. Unless, for other reasons. We were the reasons Jesus went through all those torture, so that we are reunited with God once again. He went through everything for our salvation.

Secondly, I believe that Jesus Christ is the Son of God. How can I be sure? Because God Himself claimed so.

Mat3:16 As soon as Jesus was baptized, he went up out of the water. At that moment heaven was opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and lighting on him. 17And a voice from heaven said, "This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased."

Someone asked me. If God is Almighty, and He loves us so much, why didn’t He send Jesus as soon as the first man sin? Why wait until 2000 years ago for Jesus to come? Well, we can’t measure God’s timing. His timing and ours aren’t the same. Plus, during those periods, God prepared His people for the coming Messiah. God sent many prophets to tell them to get ready. And don’t you think that 2000 years ago, it is just the perfect time for Jesus to come. It happened during the Roman’s civilization and when history is being recorded. Imagine if Jesus’ coming is way earlier, where there aren’t any substantial records of history, don’t you think it will create greater conflict today? Here it is, happened during Roman’s time not too long ago. God’s timing is never wrong. It is the right time for everything, for people to witness and experience God. My theory is “if you accept the Romans, why not Jesus!” J

There are so many “what ifs” around. People saying what if this, what if that. But here’s the thing, it is only “what if” and never more. God won’t allow those to happen. Until those what ifs begin to happen, this is my case, and here’s my stand. With God. The choice is ours, whether we choose to believe in Christ or not. God so loves us that He gave us the choice to choose. I’ve made mine, what’s yours?

John3:16 "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Just Do It!

It has been a long time since the previous post... here's another thought that i wanna share with you guys.. Past few days as i was going through the Bible, felt that this verse really hit me..

1cor2:

4My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit's power, 5so that your faith might not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power.

Here's the thing. being a new christian, there's a battle within us on whether we are "ready" to share with others about the Gospel, about God cause we think that we don't know much about the Bible, since we are new.. We are afraid that our words are not "powerful" enough to impact ppl...

But hey, Paul says that we shouldn't rely upon OUR WISDOM, but God's... He will give power to the words that are spoken. He will impact the ppl through us.. It is not by our strength, our wisdom, our abilities, our knowledge but it is by GOD'S POWER that whatever we shared is impactful; that it will make a place in the listener's heart. But this doesn't mean that we don't have to read the Bible, or to know more bout God. Rather, we should EQUIPPED this TOGETHER with the power of the Holy Spirit as we share with others about God.. The Bible says Holy Spirit will intercede for us...

So guys, common.. just share & trust that He will work out the rest! God bless! :-)

It's good to be back!

“Proper diet & regular exercise are essential for physical health. A man who doesn’t eat everyday will be weak. Proper diet & regular exercise are also the keys to spiritual growth & health. A man who doesn’t read God’s Word everyday will be weak. A man who never reads it will soon be dead. Our spiritual food is the Word of God & our spiritual exercise is obedience. We need both, EVERYDAY!”

“A baby deprived of milk will be weak & sick. Likewise, a Christian who ignores God’s Word will be weak as the Word of God helps a believer to grow strong in faith. If we exercise & lift weights, our muscle mass will increase. Same goes with faith. The more we hear & read the Bible, the more our faith will grow.”

All above spoke to me at once as I was preparing for discipleship on Monday. As I was going through the chapter on “The Bible”, I was reminded of my inconsistency in meditating God’s Word for the past few weeks. Running errands, meeting up with friends, “resting”, watching O.C., boring house-visits during festive season; after all these activities, I was all drained & tired. Whenever I tried to open the Bible, I’ll be so sleepy, that I made up my mind “No point I go on & read cause I’ll fall sleep”… These are my excuses for not having my quiet times with God. I’ve been telling myself “I’ll do it tomorrow before this and that… and I won’t watch all the downloaded shows” but well, these never happen, not until lately.

Then I began to collect every broken pieces of my distracted mind & spent an hour to read through the Bible. As always, I’ll read & end it with prayers. Once I’ve finished, I felt so refresh. Felt that God was calling me back home after the long hours of playing outside. After that night, I was even more excited to return to church on Saturday night.

Last Saturday, during worship, Shawn sang this song called “A Broken Spirit”

A broken spirit & a contrite heart
You will not despise, you will not despise
You desire truth in the inwards parts
A broken spirit & a contrite heart

Lord, my heart is prone to wander
Prone to leave the God I love
Here’s my heart, Lord
Take & seal it
Seal it for Your courts above.


As I was just listening to this song, I felt that God embraced me with His presence. Felt that His comfort was there. Immediately, I felt ashamed & broke into tears. I asked for forgiveness. I told Him I don’t want to remain spiritually dried, I asked Him to refresh my spiritual well, I asked to be close to Him & to remain in His presence always. It’s like a child running back into his father’s arms after wandering around for sometime. Embracing His unfailing love. Lord, please guard my heart, seal it & protect it. Amen!