Christmas in ECF!!!!

Noctural Polyphagia Disoder

One of the midnights, I suddenly had a hunger strike after an excessive long day of trying to feed myself with as much information as I could afford for my exam. & suddenly I just craved for nasi lemak, so I decided to drive all the way down my hill (in case some of you don’t know, I live onto of a hill called INTERNATIONAL HILL-sounds cool eh) to go the famous & expensive nasi lemak stall which is located 10mins away from my house. As I was driving, I smsed chuen to tell her bout this sudden craving (ok, I know I’m not suppose to text-&-drive). This is what she replied:

Chuen:- Haha, funny la you. I realized you like food that promotes CAD(coronary artery disease, which means in simple English-diseases that cause high blood pressure & heart attack) like bacon & nasi lemak….

Yah, if you know my family well, we have a habit of keeping bacons & hams stocked up in our refrigerator. & those are my fav. Supper has been a perpetual act that I’ve adopted since I entered IMU, I think it is because of the intense midnight oil that I burn furiously to keep up with my studies. So for those who think that I am still so freaking thin, yes I am still one, but the transition process is going. Decrease exercise coz my extra time is devoted to my medical books, decrease metabolic rate since I am ageing(ageing not getting old but growing more mature) and constant feeding regardless if I’m hungry. I just like to binge, munch whatever…

But be aware, I CAN ASSURE YOU THAT WHEN I GET TO MELBOURNE, I WILL EXERCISE 3X A WEEK. MARK MY WORDS PPL. CHECK ON ME. IF NOT, er, it is your responsibility to make sure that I keep my words. But before that, I have came up with a “MUST EAT” list before I leave for Melbourne:-

1. nasi lemak near my area
2 .my fav penang asam laksa & sea food which can be found in penang and no anywhere else in 3. case some of you intended to say “KL also got wert”
4. bacons & hams as usual which can be bought from isetan
5. dim sum
6. roti canai & milo kosong ais
7. mee rebus & rojak near my area
8. amapng yong tau foo
9. my fav & selected hawker food stalls
10. my beef noodles at jln silang
11. my air mata kuching at petaling street
12. lemon garden in Shangri-la
13. Japanese buffet in Saisaki
14. Chilli’s & Hard Rock
15. Bak Kut Teh without the spare parts
16. Sarawak laksa (if anyone knows how to cook that)
17. Dutch House restaurant at Changkat Bkt Bintang
18. er, can’t think of any now but will update the list as the ideas come into mind

So you guys, if you wanna bring me out for meal, consider the above list. I’ll really appreciate it, but stuff like milo kosong or roti canai or mamak or hawker food, I think I can pay myself. why not consider funding on the more pricy ones? Your cooperation is much appreciated ;-)

p/s:-polyphagia means excessive eating.

Light of the world

Many come to church for the presence of the God
But a few come to church with the presence of the God

The presence of God doesn’t rest upon the service or worship; rather it rests on the shoulders of men & women of God. Consider this, Jesus is not gonna reveal Himself to every single one of us and tell us to believe in Him, or trust in Him. It is through Christ in us, which reflects the presence of God to the people around us. Our friends is gonna see the Christ living in us! We are the bearers and the witnesses of God's presence & hope for world.

Many Christians, as the move to a new location, their concerns are always to look for a good and suitable church for them. But the most who are seeking define “a church that is suitable for them” by the power of the sermons, or how great is the worship session is. Sometimes it is defined by the magnitude of the church; others define it through the spiritual family of the church. However, all churches are actually the same. The pastors preached from the same book (in case you don’t know, it is the bible) & the people still serve the same God. But it is the spiritual family & the capacity to grow spiritually that make someone remain in one church from another. Some fail to realize such importance, thinking that, being in church weekly is sufficient to safeguard their relationship with God & has fulfilled the true meaning of being in the church.

When the church assembled together, something great will happen for God. The presence of God will be magnified as we are soaked in the spirit of God together. As the church fellowships, we are able to edify, equip and build each other, keeping each other from straying away from the path God intended you to be.

Do you know that....

Studies have shown that:-

95% - of Christians have never led anyone to Jesus
49% - of born again Christians brought a friend to church
30% - of born again Christians feel that they have a personal responsibility to share the gospel
20% - of born again Christians shared their faith to a non-Christian friend

As for those who don’t know Christ,

5% are hostile
20% are somewhat resistant
36% are neutral & open for discussion
28% are searching, will read & listen to what you passed to them
11% are the most receptive


Sometimes, I felt that I fall into the 30% category, knowing the responsibility God has entrusted it unto me, but yet, I struggle to just make the steps… “I can’t talk to this person” “A lot to do for EOS (end of semester) exams” “I’ll talk to him later” … all these are some of the excuses that took hold of me. I totally neglect the true reason of sharing with my friends bout Jesus. It’s not so much about responsibility, it is not so much of merely obeying… because if I just keep those reasons in mind, everything will be burdensome someday, I will soon grow tired and later lose faith in what I do.

But the reason why I wanna do this because of the love I have for the people around me. It is because of the desire to see them coming to know the Jesus, sharing the same faith, faithfully serving the unfailing God & anticipate together great things happening thru Him, & finally, celebrating together at the table of the Lord! This is what I felt is real reason of what we do each day… not purely because we are asked to, or because we are commanded to, but because we willing to. It is our heart that counts at the end of the day. God is not looking at our results, but He is looking at our hearts. Are our hearts right with God??? We love people because God loves us & all the people that He created. Consider it a joy to serve Him & to share HIStory with people around us...

How bout you? Where do you fit in those figures? Let’s bridge the 36+28+11=75% people for Jesus!!! Let this Christmas not be a passing by moment for the love ones around us, rather let this season be a fresh encounter between them & God! Let's press upon Him to see great things happening around our midst this Christmas!!!

Blessed 21st Chris!!!

The next chapter!

Praise God!!!

I finally got my matching results today! Got my first choice!!! I'll be heading to my dream uni-University of Melbourne early next year. I have this desire to persue my degree (whatever it is) in this uni since I was back in high school. But it never happened after A Levels cause I decided to take up medicine as my career path, and to go melbourne uni straight is a total killer for my family.

Even during the matching season, when I found out that the fees suddenly shot up to AUD53K, I was reluctant to rank it as my first choice. But felt that God says, "If I place you in that uni, I will provide the necessary financial amount needed to sustain me". Plus, my parents have been supporting me and asking me to put this uni as my top priority. Really grateful and thank God for such an amazing and loving parents that He has blessed me with.Today as the results is out, I can do nothing but rejoice and thank Him for bringing my dream come true... It doesn't end there. God has placed Chun Peng and Darren in melb too... Am happy to be there with ppl I am close with. God's amazing touch!

Ps117:2 For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the LORD endures forever. Praise the LORD.

Thank you God for your unfailing love. Despite the times where I missed your standards, the times where I did not do what you commanded me to do, or even times when I disappointed you, yet you have proven to be faithful... For that is your nature!

2Tim2:13if we are faithless, he will remain faithful, for he cannot disown himself.

I am excited to see what will happen when my journey in melb starts.. anticipating what great things God will bring through me in melb... Furthermore, chris christine steph and chuen will be in adelaide... few hours away from us in melb.. we can meet up during easter & winter, & have our lil reunion together in Down Under! But ultimately, let His will be done in melb!

Be an "Ananias" to someone!!!!

Acts9: 10In Damascus there was a disciple named Ananias. The Lord called to him in a vision,"Ananias!" "Yes, Lord," he answered.
11The Lord told him, "Go to the house of Judas on Straight Street and ask for a man from Tarsus named Saul, for he is praying. 12In a vision he has seen a man named Ananias come and place his hands on him to restore his sight."
13"Lord," Ananias answered, "I have heard many reports about this man and all the harm he has done to your saints in Jerusalem. 14And he has come here with authority from the chief priests to arrest all who call on your name."
15But the Lord said to Ananias, "Go! This man is my chosen instrument to carry my name before the Gentiles and their kings and before the people of Israel. 16I will show him how much he must suffer for my name."
17Then Ananias went to the house and entered it. Placing his hands on Saul, he said, "Brother Saul, the Lord—Jesus, who appeared to you on the road as you were coming here—has sent me so that you may see again and be filled with the Holy Spirit." 18Immediately, something like scales fell from Saul's eyes, and he could see again. He got up and was baptized, 19and after taking some food, he regained his strength.

This name was mentioned in the Bible for the first and the last time in Acts. That’s it! But what made this man so special that he is worth mentioning in the Bible? We all know that why people like John or Peter was constantly mentioned in the New Testament. They were Jesus’ disciples, or people like David because of Goliath or Bethsheba. But Ananias?

Back to the passage above, God spoke to Ananias and asked him to go to Paul (which was Saul then) and ministered unto him. Because Ananias is in faith and obey God’s command, you have the Paul that is strongly and widely mentioned in the Bible. You have various early churches establishment, more than half of your new testaments book written, thousands and thousands of lives changed. All through Paul’s ministry. But if it wasn’t for Ananias at first, would there still be such a great transformation in the early Christians evangelism movement? We don’t know, but one thing’s for sure, it is through one man, Ananias who obeyed what God commanded, you have our apostle Paul and through him, many lives turned to Jesus.

You see, you wouldn’t know who you are impacting. You wouldn’t know what this changed life will do to others. Or, how much can lives of other be changed through this person that you’ve been an “Ananias” to. You can make a difference. As God speaks to you or the Holy Spirit prompt you to act upon something, or even to share the gospel with our friends, you might not know what will happen to the lives you are impacting. But I do know that we gotta act if God asks us to. Don’t wait! Someone needs an “Ananias” like you!

See & Do likewise!

During the leaders’ retreat, Teresa shared this verse:-

Joh5:19Jesus gave them this answer: "I tell you the truth, the Son can do nothing by himself; he can do only what he sees his Father doing, because whatever the Father does the Son also does.

As Jesus does what the Father do, we should also see what Jesus did and do the same. Not just doing the same, but we should multiply what we are called to do. The question now is, “What would Jesus do?” & “What would He want me to do?”

Mat22:36"Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" 37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' 38This is the first and greatest commandment. 39And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' 40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

Mar16: 15He said to them, "Go into all the world and preach the good news to all creation.

If Jesus comes and tells you about these scriptures, how would you respond? Will you do as He says? How much are you willing to "carry the cross"???

Lets Dream Together!!!

It has been a while since my last wordy post. Been so caught up with revisions which I am very much left behind considering EOS is on the 3rd of Jan, and I am left with 2 months (no kidding) to revise my entire 2 1/2yrs of knowledge is IMU, which means there are foundation knowledge to revise, 9 body systems to be familiarized, and health issues which we are gonna learn after Nov 10th.

In the midst of my panic button beeping non-stop daily, pastor has been bringing the entire church through about “dreams”. Something that everyone does everyday, whether day or night, where your mind begins to wonder in its own imagination. When I was younger, I wanna be a multi-millionaire guy by 30years old (the idea still remain but the age limit is postponed due to occupation factor), because being rich means I can sustain the luxurious taste and lifestyle the I longed for, delicious yummy food, service apartment, a BMW convertible, holidays abroad every year, afford to buy anything I want, the list goes on… But the dream that I’m gonna talk about here is not those kind of dream but the “dreams” God has placed in each of our heart.

Joel2: 28 "And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, your young men will see visions.”

Every since I got back from the gateway conference in Singapore, I am so inspired to see FCBC reaching out to the community through Touch Centre. By reaching out to the community you can have direct contact with people, not just to help them and meet their needs, but there are many people out there that don’t know Jesus. It is a great platform to tell them the wonders of Jesus.

As for myself, I felt that God birth in me a desire to have a hospital of my own. A community-based hospital where minimal fees are charged, services are of sufficient quality, and patients are not just regarded as “disease” but treated with compassion and love. It is a hospital which hosts doctors of the same vision and heart and sends out doctors for borderless missions in other nations. Companies and the cooperate world will be so attracted to this dream that they would wanna play a role by supporting this hospital financially. A hospital built that is in line with pastor’s vision “community @ heart”. I can see myself investing my millions into this dream hospital. And I am not doing this alone for God is my biggest share holder, He's gonna open the doors for His kingdom to be established. Chris, myself and the church together are gonna partner to champion this dream.

Something about doctors; we are in contact with people everyday, doing the best we can in helping them improving their quality of lifestyle and battling diseases. Hence, we gain some form of “authority” to speak into their life. We can share the goodness of Christ with them. Sorta like kill two birds with one stone. :-)

P/S:- Application to work in “Dream-the-community-for-Jesus Hospital is now open. Those who think that they belong to such categories or have the heart for the community, kindly place in your application form by dropping me a mail or comment. Thanks.

Friends!

L-R:-1. A new hair cut 2. Director-to-be 3. Benchmark of lousiness 4. Slacker 101% 5. Volley-cap 6. Perpetually 3" 7. Dancer + IMU.fm 8. Mr Slow 9. Library partner 10. ALLO!!!! 11. Now you see, now you don't! 12. Hamster-genius 13. Audio-frequency butterfly 14. Ever-poise 15. Colours of joy 16. A promise to make!

Learn your brain!

The turning point!

8th Oct-marks the alpha and omega of my life. It is the end of my childhood, the life where i can take no responsibility as i am still under my parents' guardian, where maturity can still be postponed, where excuses can still be accepted. But from today onwards, it marks the beginning of the chapter of responsibility and responsibility and more responsibility. No longer I can be a lazy fat arse(which I happened not to have) and not doing anything, push all troubles to my parents hoping they will help me take care of it, and began to carry the baton as the head of the family. I am officially an adult now.

Although 21st birthday is not a big deal for me, but this year I celebrated it with a heart of thanksgiving... to God for all that He has given me, sustained me, and loved me, my parents for everything they have given to nurture me to what I am today, and a group of blessed friends who each in their unique way, impacted my life differently. I would could this birthday celebration a "BLESSED" celebration! As for my birthday wish, I desire to see the people around me to come to know Him, and take a good taste of His goodness if they seek Him with their heart. Hope that it is gonna be a year of great adventure with God, be a part of His miracle, seeing lives changed thru Him, and witness His people began to grow and rise up to great things for Him, be an ambassador for His appeal in the world! :-)

After 5 years, finally it is opened! The wine that I've bought in Aussie and vowed to open it on the day I turn 21.

21st at Yuen's-5th Oct 2006

Birthday greetings

Chris (KK look), myself & Wai Meng
My ex-housemates ;-)
The PM2 gang
Facing my 21st soon
Time capsule-5th Oct 2006 til 5th Oct 2016
Celebrating my 21st at Yuen's Buffet Steamboat
Steph Wong, Se Yin, Evelyn, Myself, Li Yeen, Christine, Jennifer

Guys, thanks so much for the cakes, the presents, the suprises that last til Friday, and the greetings. It's Amazing!!!!!!

L.I.V.E. Loud!!!

A lot of people talk about life. Many say they wanna experience and live life to the fullest so that when they are 40/50 years old, there aren’t any regrets. I, myself am guilty of that thought too. We never hesitate to stop at the traffic light and start to think that life is more than just partying, smoking, loading yourself with litres of booze, courtship, etc. Most will say to those thinkers, “Common, don’t be so serious. You should loosen up.”

But what is life really all about? I believe everyone on this earth will ask. Is it just about living out their life like every other people do, in attempt to fit into the “crowd”? Or else, you will be left out, or you are the odd one… Some people might think that they have to do stunts or drift around a roundabout to be “cool” and “I have live life”… But do you really find permanent fulfillment in that? The pleasure and joy from alcohol and fagging last only when you are with your friends, because it is fun doing it together since we are now grown-ups but can this be called a lasting joy?

These people, who live a life like this, need to constantly do this thing to sustain their happiness. Constantly rekindle this temporary fulfillment that soon fades as the week goes by. So, what do you call this? Living life to the fullest? If yes, why didn’t it last fully?

So, do all these life experiences and encounters bring freedom since they do not offer lasting fulfillment? No, I don’t think so. It is more like they are trapped in this kind of lifestyle. Everyday is a routine for these people. At the end of the day, when you wanna tell your next generation about your life journey, is this what you wanna share? Is this what you want them to admire you for? If you think this is the life that you wanna live, so you are saying this is the purpose you are called to this world. That is to life your live around the clock. To do well in your career, be financially stable, get married and start a family. When you look back your life 40 years later, what are the great things you have done as you journey through your life?

As for my life, I live it for God. My purpose is to reach out to the friends around me, share with them about Jesus, talk to them about life, vision, goals, purpose. To love and appreciate the people around me. Everyday is an exciting day for me as I wait upon what God will do in my life today. Who is He gonna place in my midst? How am I gonna make my conversation fruitful? Every encounter I have with others I ask God what He can bring out of it at the end of the conversation. At the end of the day, it is my fulfillment when I meet God standard, and trust me, it last!!!! It doesn’t just end there. It will prompt you to do more things, great things! God continues to extend your border.

This is my last year here before stepping into another journey of my medical career abroad. Before that, I hafta sit for my finals which encompasses what I’ve learned in IMU this 2 ½ years. Honestly, I’m running out of time. But thank God, my 24 hours seem like days. I could use it to do His work and study effectively at the same time. What grips me is to see youth wasting their time doing things that don’t bring forth benefits in future. I really hope I can help people around me find their life purpose God has called them to be. I believe, at the end of my life, it will be a great story to tell my kids because God is the author of my chapters in life. Measure your standard to God’s, not the world. Ultimately, it is He you wanna imitate.

Repent!!!

Finally, exam is over! I can take some time to breathe, and recuperate some of my thoughts. It has been a while since I last blogged. To those who were wondering how was D.I.V.E in camp, lemme tell you…. it was fantastic!!! Those who didn’t go, you really missed the time we spent together with each other & with God. But this is not what this post is all about… And as I was attending my leadership class today, Shawn spoke about this verse:-

Matt26: 14Then one of the Twelve—the one called Judas Iscariot—went to the chief priests 15and asked, "What are you willing to give me if I hand him(Jesus Christ) over to you?" So they counted out for him thirty silver coins.

Shawn told us, “Judas trade Jesus for 30 silver coins. What about us now? How much did you trade Jesus for?”

This really grips me, because many of us put their personal life, career, studies, unattended responsibilities, etc above Jesus. We trade Him for a gathering with friends… 2 hours of weekend service for studying for exam… or maybe to attend an event in school… This totally nullifies His position to be the Lord & Savior in our life. We uphold our worldly responsibility more than our heavenly responsibility, which is to obey what God says. I can’t comprehend how they can take other events so seriously, but not Jesus, who is our God, who blesses us everything under the roof, who shines us through troubles… Is the door to our Father only knocked when we need His help? Or are we too comfortable with our life that we think we are in control & do not need God’s help to author the chapters of our life?

Rom10:9That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.

This verse is prayed by all who wanted to commit their life to Christ. But instead of committing, it is “committing”… In the Roman days, when the soldiers go around asking, “Is Caesar the Lord?” the people will respond, “Yes, Caesar is Lord”. As for Christians, they will claim “No, Jesus is Lord!” Because of that, many were killed for their faithfulness in Christ. Many were used as human sacrifice for entertainment for the Romans.

Think about this, what about us today? Do we really mean it when we say the sinner’s prayer? Or are we just saying so that we make it to heaven? Jesus never says don’t study, or don’t care about your responsibility. Rather, He asked us to follow Him & obey what He says. Is it so difficult for us to come to Him? After what He has given us, and done for us on the cross…..

These thoughts prompted me to repent…

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Gateway City Youth Conference 2006-Celebrating the Nations

Here're the things that captured me, and felt that God spoken to me throughout this conference held by FCBC. Although this post might be long, and my thoughts might not be structurally written, but these are my encounters throughout this week.

Sunday July 30th, 2006

We were going to EXPO (Singapore Convention Centre) where FCBC will have their weekend service there. The Kl delegates were all dressed up in our traditional costume. As I stepped into the congregation I was really moved by their worship. All the songs revolved around the theme "salvation". After worship, we received a prayer blessing by Ps Lawrence Kong, the senior pastor of FCBC we left for our prayer booth outside the congregation.

Next, we went into the Chinese service and as I was there waiting (since I can't really understand chinese) the worship band were singing this song called "Listen Closely". Although I didnt understand the content of the song, but I felt that God is asking me to listen closely to what He has called me to do.. What He has called us to do.. that is the make disciples!

Then we attended the youth service which again, the entire worship revolved around reaching the lost, preaching the gospel "Tell the world that Jesus live, tell the world that..." I began to weep. I realised that over the entire 6 months, I wasn't as fruitful as I ought to be. Although I attend church, go for discipleship, attend ENLI, sometimes lead cells and do outreaches, I realise I wasn't as deliberate, I did not go "to the end of the earth" for Him. I have put aside His calling. All that I've said to Him that I will do, but I did not do. I felt I've wasted God's time and effort in building me, in equipping me to be a better minister, to be the salt and the light that give the flavour to other's life & shine the path for the lost. I repented and I asked for His forgiveness.

Col1:10And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully 12giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.

As we share our encounters at night, I couldn't stop crying. I couldn't resist the thought that I've missed out so much opportunities throughout this 6 months. There're so much things I can do, to share with His gospel to my friends, yet I didnt do it cause of various excuses like "later I'll do it" "it's not the time yet" "tired" "afraid my friends will reject what I've said".... Felt that God began to remind me of what've done throughout this year.....

Monday 31st July, 2006

Pastor Eugene told us that if God ever ask this question "What do you want?" What is our answer? How are we to respond? He told us that, "Be sure that what you want is something what God wants you to do for Him." I told God I want the IMU, I want the people around me to come to know Him. I rededicate my commitment to Him. As Ps Eugene asked for an altar call to those who is seeking for calling... I did not respond and just remained at my seat, kneeling and asking God to seal my dream. But there came a leader who prayed for me, asking God to lift up my worries upto Him.. This leader prayed a prayer regarding this verse:

Mat11:28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Then he prayed for my parents, for salvation to happen in my family. I was so moved by his prayer because, there I am, not knowing who he is, but he is praying so accurately. I felt that God was speaking to me through Him. Only the day before, I was sharing my concerns to Chris about IMU. I was so moved because God has spoken so clearly at that moment. Really felt relieved and comforted by God.

At night, as Ps Lawrence asked the China and Japan delegates to kneel before each other, and pray for forgiveness for what Japan had done to Asia, I wept as I felt the Holy Spirit filling the entire congregation. That night, I felt that God is speaking unity among all believers there. All past has gone for everyone is a new creation in Christ! We are no longer bonded by our past. This verse came into my mind:-

Eph4:2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4There is one body and one Spirit—just as you were called to one hope when you were called— 5one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.

Tuesday 1st August, 2006

During worship, as we sang "This is my desire, to honour you...Lord with all my heart, I worship you..." "Lord I give You my heart, I give You my soul, I live for You alone... Lord have Your Way in me".... Although I am so familiar with this song by now, but the word "DESIRE" spoke to me. Felt that God was asking me, how much is my desire to honour Him? How much that I gave my heart to Him? Although I believe I submit my life to Him, trusting Him in everything I do, but here He is asking me, "WEN HAO, HOW MUCH IS YOUR DESIRE FOR ME? IF YOU REALLY DESIRE ME, WHY DIDNT YOU DO THE THINGS I DESIRE YOU TO DO FOR ME?" I felt guilty, I felt I had cheated Him for the past few months. I wept again throughout the worship.

Later, as China was sharing about their city condition, the youth trend and the needs of prayer in area of poverty, all promiscuities, the loss of fathering spirit and their hunger for God to make a change in all these areas I was so touched. In my mind I was thinking, we malaysians are so blessed with God's riches and comforts and we're under tested that we lost our dependancy on Him and many think we dont need a God, whereas the nations of China faces various obstacles that they desperately need God, crying and longing for Him.... Wanting and needing Him to make change in their nation. I felt we need a "wake-up call".....

Wednesday 2nd August, 2006

The last day, I felt that "The time has come" for all of us, for myself to start to go for IMU deliberately. Although we sing this song throughout the conference, but on this day, I felt that God was trying to convey it clearly to me. Whatever I do, I should to it in faith, for God blessed those who is full of faith.

Luke5:17One day as he was teaching, Pharisees and teachers of the law, who had come from every village of Galilee and from Judea and Jerusalem, were sitting there. And the power of the Lord was present for him to heal the sick. 18Some men came carrying a paralytic on a mat and tried to take him into the house to lay him before Jesus. 19When they could not find a way to do this because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on his mat through the tiles into the middle of the crowd, right in front of Jesus. 20When Jesus saw their faith, he said, "Friend, your sins are forgiven."

"The time has come to stand for ALL we believe it" More deliberate efforts has to be make. I should be bold and be strong and courageous on what I believe in, on my ministry and believing that God will fill in the rest. As I came back to KL, whatever things that I might face and will face, I will not be worry for God has entrusted IMU into my hands. I just gotta claim it!!! In Christ's Name all things are possible!!!

Nerd Failure!

For those who always have that small thought or perception that is stucked at the corner of your mind about how nerd CHIONG WEN HAO is, here's a scientific result (which is claimed to be highly reliable & effective as it is proven by statisticians who had done this questionnaire randomly on ppl around the world) :

My nerd score :- 23/100 (which falls into nerd wannabe) (but I have no idea who in the world who which to be a nerd wannabe of all the things to be, me included so I strongly suggest this comment is invalid although the test is substantially conclusive of your nerd level)

For some unkwown reasons, I dunno why I couldn't copy & paste the entire layout/site or whatever you call it into my blog. So for those of wish to check their nerd level, pls refer to this site :- http://www.nerdtests.com/ft_nq.php?im

All comments made were based on personal opinions. For those who wish to comment on anything about this post, pls refer to this green description posted. Thanks for listening!

Weights Freak!

As I was exercising in the gym today, saw this guy (guess he's a body builder) doing a bench press (not sure if thats what you call it) with approximately 50kg on each side. In my mind, I was like, what the heck??? Thats is almost 2 times heavier than I do. Can imagine 2 of me hanging at each end of the steel bar & that fella carrying it. Felt so tempted on telling him that he might be facing so many complication. Not to mention he is in his 50++.

I began to wonder. People will just do anything to get in shape. The amount of weights they would lift, the types of diet they will conform to prevent any additional fats from hiding at every corner or your torso, those special drinks or nutritions that they spent $$$ buying, the list goes on. As for girls, or ladies, some even go to the point of not eating, so to speak dieting just to look like their friends, or always complaining non-stop that they are fat but actually, there isnt any excess fats remain in their bodies. People are just weird. Some are so devoted to looking good that they are so disciplined to go to fitness centre everyday before or after work.

Back to my point. I could think of so many reasons why people shouldn't carry excessive weights during workout:

1. You might just get spinal cord injury. There was one time where I saw this young, mat salleh guy & I think he's around 20+ (he looks big but my guess is, the size of his brain is as small as a rat). He was trying to lift the amount of weights as i mentioned above & as he was trying to lift the weights but it was to heavy for him to handle. But being that bozo man who's ego is as big as his size, insisting on lifting it... As I was on the treadmill I saw his back curve as he forcefully lift the weight. This kind gym assistant went & help him but that bozo guy went & scolded the assistant for interfering him. I was thinking, if only he injured himself or the weights fall on him, hrmmm... ok.. not being cruel but well...

2. You might just get hernia. Trust me, being a medical student, having a hernia (this bulge bulging out near your scrotum area or near your groin area due to the weakening of the abdominal wall) isn't the best looking thing that one ever desires. It is ugly, big & paintful. & carrying excessive weights can lead to hernia. I was so tempted to ask that old man if he knows what's hernia or has he got it before. But well, he might just scold me back for being busy body like that mat salleh guy i mentioned above.

3. Sometimes you might just get muscle tear. Don't know if it is very probable but anything is possible right.

4. As for growing age group, carrying excessive weights upright might just hinder your upward growth (not sure if it's proven scientifically, but this is my guess & my own deduction)

5. Someone I have this thought that carrying too heavy weights might just injury yourself. Your vein, nerve whatever. & Straining isn't good cause it will have lots of after effects.

Can't think of further reasons now cause I am waiting for my dinner. But the reasons mentioned above are enough to make you think twice I hope. I suggest everyone should follow my advise: do moderate weights & exercise & tone your muscles. If you wanna build, take it easy & slowly. Don't push it too hard.

We're not call to follow signs & wonders but instead the signs & wonders follow us when the gospel is preached. We don't keep our eyes on signs & wonders; we keep our eyes on Jesus.

- Brother Yun

Glorious Germany!

Honours To Germany!

Ok, I bet 243 friends of mine are celebrating Germany's downfall against Italy in the semi-final match. Not because they suck or what, but because they have just something against me supporting Germany. So, as you can imagine, when Italy scored the goals, my sweet friends start pooring in SMSes regarding on this matter.

Back to the match... I must say, Italy did play really well. It was a sweet goal & well, they deserve to win. But readers, don't get me wrong. My loyalty stays with Germany despite their lost. No changing teams unlike my best friend, who changed her side twice, first from Brazil, & then to England (which by the way, both lost in the quarters). Bet she will stand for Italy since they managed to beat Germany.

Well what can I say, every end is a new beginning. & I believe this exit for Germany will push the team to a greater level in FIFA 2010. They will be back, better equipped more skillful in year 2010. Although I will receive various forms of torment & belittlement once I meet my friends this Friday, I will not SUBMIT to the critics as I believe, GERMANY PLAYED AWESOME IN MOST OF THEIR GAMES!!!!

Here I would like to add, to those who have the slightest thought of saying anything to me on Germany's lost to Italy, hear my advise first. Reflect on how lousy your team is (except those supporting Italy from beginning) before starting commenting on Germany. For, in my heart, they are the BEST!

I just wanna honour these players for an amazing game: klose for scoring 5 amazing goals for Germany, neuville who although scored one goal against polland deserve much credits than podoski (just dislike him), ballack although did not score any goals yet lead the team til this far, friedrich & lahm who defended well in every match, schneider who although look clumsy but did an amazing job as a midfielder & of course lehmann (who although took over kahn's position as the main keeper & I was kinda unhappy about that at first) saved so many shots from the opponents.

GREAT JOB GERMANY!

Dartboard or Pipeline?

One day during my devotional time, this thought came to my mind: “Don’t let life happen to you. Let life happen through you.”

The first phrase described me to a T, for I tended to see life as something coming at me. I felt like a worn-out dartboard. I was using all my energies to shield myself from the darts of life’s trials.

But the second phrase, “Let life happen through you,” presented a different approach. Instead of dodging life’s fiery darts, I was to let God’s life and love be channeled through me, blessing me on its way to blessing others.-Joanie Yoder

Col1:24Now I rejoice in what was suffered for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regard to Christ's afflictions, for the sake of his body, which is the church. 25I have become its servant by the commission God gave me to present to you the word of God in its fullness— 26the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the saints. 27To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.
28We proclaim him, admonishing and teaching everyone with all wisdom, so that we may present everyone perfect in Christ. 29To this end I labor, struggling with all his energy, which so powerfully works in me.

In his letter to the Colossians, Paul mentioned the many troubles he was facing. Yet he was determined to be a channel of blessing by allowing God to work through him. What about you? Are you a dartboard or a pipeline?

Right relationship with God!

KNOW Him

LOVE Him

SERVE Him

TRUST Him

FEAR Him

Some people will ask us, "who is Jesus?" & Most Christians will answer "He's the Son of God, our Saviour!"... As much as we can say we know Him, & how much we love Him when we sing songs of praises & worship, how many people out this category will actually serve & trust Him whole-heartedly? I myself won't say I am 100%.

Most people just play a role as a church-goer. But God's command doesn't end there. One has to be a DOER too. Speaking from medical students point of view, many will say that the amount of time spent to do God's work can be put into studies. Even an hour can be so previous when comes to exam's season. Some will say, "Don't wanna join the ministry, cause need to go back to church to practice... Need to study la! Darn stress!" But do we realise that we actually nullify God's greatness & His power to do the IMPOSSIBLE. As much as we worship God so passionately during service, singing songs about trusting God (can't think of any songs at the moment) , but do we actually "walk the talk"?

Jesus in His last words didn't say "Don't worry. Just come to church every weekend. & Make sure you study hard during weekdays ok?" nor did He ever say "Don't worry about the ministry. There are other people that are going to do that. You just study k"... Instead He said it CRYSTAL CLEAR in matt28 "Go & make disciples of all nations" .. But do we?

Look up on the dictionary. It says trust = Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. But is our reliance firm? The Bible speaks loudly about God's character, being the provider, who gives us strength & bless us with all our needs. Not that we can't understand the Bible, we just don't practice what we read. As much as doctors need practical in order to be a good, christians need to exercise their faith too in order to please Him!

1John2:3We know that we have come to know him if we obey his commands. 4The man who says, "I know him," but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in him. 5But if anyone obeys his word, God's love is truly made complete in him. This is how we know we are in him: 6Whoever claims to live in him must walk as Jesus did.

Unnecessary Business most are doing!

This is a post about typical malaysian drivers that can't mind their own business when they are on the road.

Last Monday, after CSU I decided to go home since its around 4+pm & the sky is kinda dark. Don't wanna get stuck in the jam, especially when it rains later. As I was approaching cheras area, guess what I saw from far? This properly lined vehicles, with all their back red lights on, queuing through the highway. MASSIVE JAM. I was like, darn it! Must be an accident. Here, thought I was smart enough to go back early in order to break the traffic. Some people just have to drive recklessly & got into an accident. (I wanted to rush home so that I can study for my exam on Wednesday)

As I began to approach part of the road when the jam began to subside, to my great suprise, I found that the accident was at the opposite of the road. I WAS LIKE, WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE MALAYSIANS? Here, at my side of the road, motorcyclist stopped by the road side to see. Some cars parked at the side of the road, I ASSUME they went across to help. & the remaining cars passing that area, DECIDED TO KEEP IN TOUCH WITH THE ACCIDENT & STARTED SLOWING DOWN & TURN THEIR KAY-POH-CHEE (busybody in cantonese) HEAD TO TAKE A GOOD LOOK AT WHAT HAPPENED!

In my mind, I was thinking, these people, being the TYPICAL malaysians not even helping in the accident, but participating in witnessing it so that when they go back home, they can tell the incident to their love ones, or worst, after passing the accident area, they went on their journey with an empty mind. Don't they realise that they are holding all the cars back, causing massive unnecessary traffic jam! Causing unnecessary petrol combustion which further contributes to environmental hazards! Most important of all, they are wasting every other people's time, ESPECIALLY MINE!

Here's some tips what you should do if you see an accident & you don't feel like helping out (Helping out means get out of the car & help the victims not sit by the roadside & watch)

1.Tell yourself it is none of my business!

2. Don't have the slightest idea of pressing your break to slow down & look at the side. Look in front instead. Chances are, you will bang the car in front of you if you are so involved with what happened at the other side of the road. Then you will cause another massive unwanted traffic jam, & causes you $$$ to fix your vehicle.

3. Press your horn to tell the people who is slowing down in front of you to keep moving.

4. If you have the urge to "check-out" what happen, refer to point 1 & 2 again. Tell yourself that if the accident is major enough, you will catch it in the news at night or "the star" tmrw morning. If it is not reported, chances are the accident is minor & it is not worth your time knowing. Hence, in future, remember this important point.

I think in terms of accident watching, its gonna be MALAYSIA BOLEH!

A NEW LIFE!

A NEW LIFE!

NOV 2005- During church camp


There was a water baptism session during the camp. I really wanna be baptised, but at the same time I wanted my parents consent before committing into it, cause I really wanna honour them.

Me:- (calling my parents) Hello, can I be baptised today?
Dad:- No, don't do that now. Just go and have fun. Do it some time later.
Me:- But why? ...... (Me explaining & reasoning to my dad)

At the end of the conversation, I still didn't manage to get him to approach.


End of May 2006 - While having breakfast with my parents


Been praying about this since church camp. So recently, when i found out that we're gonna have another water baptism session on this date, I took up the courage to ask my parents again. Before asking, I was asking God to help me make them understand, let them realise how important it is to me.

Me:- I've something I wanna ask you all.
Parents:- What is it?
Me:- My church is gonna have another session for those who wish to be baptised. Can I too?
Parents:- I knew it!!! Knew what you wanna ask when you start asking like that way (I was like erm.... in a "where got?" facial expression). No, don't do it now. Wait til you graduate.
Me:- Why? It's important that I do it now. I know I am ready. Really wanna be baptised here, in this spiritual family. Here is where I came to know Christ & here is where I grow. Plus, I am really connected with this spiritual family. It is my last chance this time. I'm gonna leave next year. I really don't wanna miss this opportunity.
Parents:- Didn't we said you can only do it once you graduate. Maybe you will have a different exposure when you go oversea. Maybe over there, they do it differently. It is good to wait.
Me:- It's not gonna change anything if I wait til I graduate. I've already accepted Christ. There's no way I will turn back. Plus, water baptism is done the same way everywhere. The significance is the same.
Parents:- If that's the case, go do it & don't let me know if you wanna do it so much. Since you converted without discussing with us anyway.
Me:- I really want to, but don't you understand, I want your consent. I want you to understand why it is important for me. If I wanna do as you have just said, I could have done it during church camp. But I didn't. I really wanna honour you. That's what the Bible says.

Conversation just ends there. With the same answer. Was kinda disappointed at first. I began asking God, why? Is it not time yet for me? Prayers still continue. It's too early for any changes yet. Believe He is gonna make a twist when the date starts to draw closer. After breakfast, I drove to uni.


This week while having breakfast with my dad
(As you begin to notice, most of the conversation takes place during a meal, over breakfast time especially. This is because it is the start of the day, where all the mood & energy level are still at the optimum level. & that is the time where I get to talk cause there are no distractions for my parents. So, I could get full attention from them)


Dad:- (While I was busy eating my beef noodles, yummy!!!) So, when's your water baptism thing?
Me:- This sunday. Why?
Dad:- If you think you are ready, go ahead.
Me:- (Me, in my usual shocking look( if I have any) ) Er, are you sure? What made you change your mind? I don't want you to say it because you saw me feeling upset and so on. I want you to get it.
Dad:- If you said you are ready, go get baptised. You're gonna do it sooner or later anyway.
Me:- Thanks alot. It means a lot to me.

I was so happy at that news. Really thank God for such a great miracle. If you know my dad well, he is a person with a very strong opinion on himself, especially in terms of Christianity, worse when I began to accept Christ. It definitely take a DEVINE CHANGE for him to make such a decision. After breakfast, I took off to uni, singing songs of praises! God did answer my persistent prayer! Quickly messaged Shawn.

Today, IT IS DONE. Chris came along with me saying he wanna witness one of my life's millstones. 18 of us got baptised. Was a great moment for me. PRAISE YOU LORD!

X-MAN!!!

Situation 1

Saw a colleague C coming from opposite direction while on my way to library. Decided not to be such a snob. So, I waved & said "HI" when C looked at me. In response to that, C looked at me for a while & turned away without a reply. I was so suprised of that encounter that I stood in front of the library for a while, thinking what had just happened. I thought to myself maybe C didnt hear me, or didnt notice me. In the end, didnt bother & just went in to library to study.

Situation 2

Wai Meng & I just finished lunch. Decided to head back to the library ( ok, you guys must be thinking I am this super duper nerd guy, which i am not.. the reason why i keep going to library is bcoz exam is around the corner) and as we were walking, I saw C again coming from the opposite direction. Being born with a nice heart, I decided to wave & say "HI" again, this time, clearer & louder just to see if C will respond. He did actually, by looking at me, & turn away again without any reactions what-so-ever.

I don't think that people will to hate me to the point of ignoring me in such an obvious way. Not many ppl will be so brave to do so. Moreover I hold such a low profile in uni, I don't think I create enough friction for ppl to hate me. Either that, or this C person must be super blur or lagging in response. I think I've learned my lesson & will know how to proceed in future when I see C again.

C, YOU'VE BEEN "X"!!!!!!!!

From East Malaysian Synd to Sabahan Congenital Distorted Mind Synd!!!

OK. This blog is typed to address the misfortunate, shallow mindset of the east malaysians towards the west malaysians. Apparently they are still stuck in "their laid-back generation".

Firstly, about the "chi ku pa" thingie. I think the sabahan especially have the wrong interpretation of that term. IT IS AND I MAKE IT CLEAR ONCE AGAIN "CHI KU PA"... not because of the lousy HK ppl using that term, but rather, it is the common term. set aside the way of opening your fingers. You guys renamed it out of convenience. Even the sarawakians use "chi ku pa".. The entire malaysian uses that except for the sabahan. Well, can you see the difference? Are they really right about their term of "ku chi pa"? or are they congenitally confused or "serong"? I guess for Steph & Jeremy who are proud to be sabahan, should look into this point before voicing their so called "true opinion".. plus, this game was invented by chinese. chinese being superstitious, will nvr start a game by calling "ku" simply means your ku-ku bird(those who doesnt know this term, go ask your male chinese friends)

Another thing that i wanna bring up is KLCC.... well, it is true that we hired foreign engineers for such construction. but think again, we have the capability & ability to do that. but do Sabahan generally have? whats the point of having the 100% genuine highest mountain in SEA which contribute less to our country, comparatively to KLCC, WORLD (mind you) TALLEST TWIN TOWER BUILDING.... can you see the difference? its WORLD... NOT SEA...... plus, the contribution that KLCC has towards malaysia.. it really put malaysia in the eyes of the world, declaring that we malaysians too can support such developments like countries such as United States, Singapore, Hong Kong, Japan, etc.... if it is not because of such sky-scrapers like KLCC, the lousy whites will be still wondering where malaysian is located, or are we so "3rd world" that we still use black & white tv.... besides being the HQ for Petronas, KLCC is also a home to the best shopping complex in malaysia. the convention centre is the center-point of so many meetings and organisations in the world. can you tell me which corner of sabah has such great capacity to host such a big economic development to the country, and to the world? So what if you guys have mt kinabalu.. i dont deny it does contribute to the tourism in this country, but comparatively speaking.... which is of higher value to this country? furthermore steph, your lousy mountain has BEEN CONQUERED! i stood above the mountain. but did anyone ever stood above KLCC? if yes, correct me...

As for the shopping malls, i dont wanna talk about it.. any primary school kid will know where you guys get your retails from.. KL... the reason why there's a market for so many branded retails in sabah is because of kl.. it is thru here that everything starts expanding..

& if the sabahan speak so highly of themselves, why come over to west malaysia to study... for job opportunity.. one of my sabahan friends argued.. there's no private medical school in sabah.. thats so true... firstly, the investor dont even wanna waste time setting up such school at such an obscure place... 2ndly, if you are so pro-sabah, why come to kl... find every ways to get into your UNIMAS..(btw it is kinda nice place to study medicine compared to IMU)... why rely on kl's education & job opportunities?

development in sabah is still way back... only recently that you guys gain the title of a "city".. this shows that the lack of faith in the government for so long... holding back and thinking that you guys couldnt take the workload once the BIG CITY WORD is placed on top of kota kinabalu... you guys still live with your less than 3 sec tunnel, pathetic highways which are smaller than the mainroads in kl, reclaimed lands, no coffee bean outlets.... you guys still travel by hugging the logs at kinabatangan while we start to modernise area around Klang river...

as for the island, i cant comment on both coz i nvr been to all islands in west malaysia & sipadan in sabah... so no point in discussing this matter.... plus, whats the point of going thru so many troubles to dive & enjoy the marine life, where we can just experience the same thing in aquaria KLCC without being wet... why so dumb... why sabah still stuck in their "old-age mentality"... common, if you wanna keep up with our prime minister vision of vision 2020, you guys have to start to change.. make a stand & put to death all the old distorted thinking.. the generation in sabah think like you guys bcoz there's no change since beginning.. it causes a congenital mindset in every individual in sabah...

Here i rest my case..

(this blog was posted not to go against the sabahan but rather, to make clear to some of my sabahan friends some of my point of view. those sabahans who think that the facts stated are wrong, do share.. I am open to discussion.. but this post is targeted to one of my close friend steph wong)

Memories!!!!

Chuen & Me after her party.... Men in blacks & whites & with odd colours here & there...
Chuen with the dancers....
Mark & Chuen...
Ultraman fantasy?

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CHUEN!!!!

A simple bubble tea,
that was all it need.
To start a great friendship,
that last til this date.

We often ask,
at moments such as this,
what are the best words to say,
on such a memorable day.

I know I made it obvious,
& it was clear for most to see,
that those days just ain't the easiest,
moments for me.

But you've helped me thru' the fall,
& I always know you care,
but most important of all,
you've always been there.

I know it was not easy,
listening to me cry,
but i don't think you know what it means to me,
to have you by my side.

You've guided me thru' the tunnel,
til I see the light,
& it's nice to know there's someone,
who would share the burden of my fight.

Why I'm blessed with a friend like you,
this i never know.
But I thank God everyday,
for letting a friend like you, to come my way.

As time past, separate we may go.
The seasons change & it will show.
I will age & so will you,
but our friendship remains, strong & true.

This poem marks my friendship to you,
on such a day specially for you,
here's a promise I make to you,
that I'll always be there for you.


Thanks chuen & God bless you.

Dead poor!

Here lies a truly poor being

born poor, raised poor,

remained poor & died poor.

Poorly he lived & poorly he died;

maintaining status quo was his only pride.

Came across this poem was i was flipping through the Malaysia Medical Assoc magazine as I was waiting for the next patient during my GP posting with Dr. Anthony. Thank God, I am no where near what the poet describe.

Let's X-cavate!!!

Who am I

Tell me why

I am here for

coz sometimes I'm lost

Who will give

Me a lift

When I'm feeling weak

It's your strength I need

Before the world began

You were on His mind

To love Him & be loved by Him

Oh, what a sweet relief

Why am I--still worrying today?

Why should I-- let sorrow stay

Come let's be strong & courageous

Because, He has given

JOY PEACE LOVE and

STRENGTH to last for the day

His mercy new everyday

Sufficient, Your grace is amazing

Oh thank You Father

For the mighty cross

So that I am Yours

Mighty child of God

That is the theme song for this year's CF camp. The camp was all about rediscovering ourselves, hence X-CAVATE!!! It was held in MBS Rawang for past 3 days. Around 60+ IMU-ers attended the camp. Throughout this camp, friendship had been made. Team spirit had been built. But best of all, God's voice was made clear!!!

The speaker shared this verse:-

1Pet2:9But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.

It says we are God's chosen people. Each of us today, having a relationship with God because He chose to start a relationship with us first. We didn't make the call. He did. He is so merciful & kind to us. He chose each of us just as we are. A sinner who didn't know what sin is & who lived in a lifestyle so compromising to the pattern of the world. But now, we are no longer bounded by sin. He paid the final price at calvary. Now we are His people, with immediate excess to Him. We can talk to Him anytime, anywhere. Our identity is found in our creator!

Nevertheless, we also become a mediator between God & the non-believers, introducing them to God. Our purpose now is to glorify Him & our mission on earth is to do what God wants us to do; which is to make disciples. That is God's calling in our life. We are the salt & light for this world. We are the one who shine the path & lead people to God. As christians, we all know this. We hear it from our leaders, sermons & friends. But the Bible says :-James1:22Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.

It made me wonder, am I doing what God calls me to do. Am I doing on my own strength or relying upon Him to open the way? Did I make full use of the opportunity He has given me?During devotion, someone shared: "I just wonder if God is pleased with me?" This question really stucked in my head til now. During worship, God's love & sacrifice began to hit me. His grace & blessings ran in my mind once again. I asked Him, "Why do you love us so much?" "What did we do to deserve such an amazing grace?" Slowly, I began to weep. It just remind me that His grace is sufficient for me. Nothing else matter. If I didn't get what I want, maybe God thinks that it is not suitable for me, or it is not time for me to have it, or maybe He is putting me through another challenge to refine my faith. Whatever the outcome is, I believe it is best for me.

But now, I should start X-cavating myself. Am I carrying out His mission?

In Christ Alone!

In Christ alone my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This Cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My Comforter, my All in All

Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh

Fullness of God in helpless babe

This gift of love and righteousness

Scorned by the ones He came to save

‘Til on that cross as Jesus died

The wrath of God was satisfied

For every sin on Him was laid

Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay

Light of the world by darkness slain

Then bursting forth in glorious Day

Up from the grave He rose again

And as He stands in victory

Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me

For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear in death

This is the power of Christ in me

From life’s first cry to final breath

Jesus commands my destiny

No power of hell, no scheme of man

Can ever pluck me from His hand

‘til He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand

We can celebrate every day of our lives because of what Christ did for us on the cross 2000 years ago.

John11: 25Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; 26and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?"

Reminiscence - in the happening hotel, JW Marriott!

It all began here...

Nice ambience!!!

Remnants of PM2....
Great brothers in Christ!!!
M204 - The bold & beautiful

Yunny hunny bunny & I Prom Queen of 2006 aka Miss Johor aka Christine... banyak gelaran
Me Steph & Chun Peng
Reminiscence of C2-11-1
Jennifer, Agony Aunt, Me, Rose, Li Yeen & Se Yin
Jennifer & I
La Yin, Se Yin, Christine, Me & Li Yeen
Beauty of Starhill at midnight
Stary Stary Night.....

Wai Meng, Me & Phuay Fhern

Everything starts from the "mind"!!

Sow a thought, reap a word

sow a word, reap an action

sow an action, reap a habit

sow a habit, reap a character

sow a character, reap a destiny

Whether we are aware or not, whatever thought, opinion, desire, etc that we have, first go to our mind before it comes into action. The mind is the determinant! It is the decision maker. & our mind defines us. Although our mind has great power & control over us, it is also one of the most vulnerable part in us. It also has so much freedom, that it opens itself to various opinions that eager and constantly to speak to it. These opinions eager to make themselves known to our mind, trying their best to convince our mind into believing them. Hence, our mind is also very sensitive & easily contaminated. If our mind conforms to the wrong idea, it will leads us to destruction.

That is why, it is important for us to have a right mind. & Mark 5:15 says "When they came to Jesus, they saw the man who had been possessed by the legion of demons, sitting there, dressed and in his right mind; and they were afraid." So, the only way to have a right mind is through Jesus. Constantly ask Him to keep our mind right, to keep track of our mind's progress & keep our mind focus to His will so that we will prosperous in everything we do!

Nightmare!

Spotlight shinning. People watching. Camera ready. The light was blinking. My heart was pumping furiously. Breathing became more intensely. The sensation of throwing out came into my mind as I was sitting in front of the camera, thinking what to say.

How did this happen?

Situation:- Chris & I talking to my pastor after ENLI class. (To sum it all, it’s a class to equipped you to be a better minister for God) Suddenly the camera lady of my church came in.

Camera lady: Is this your first time in ENLI?
Chris: Yup.
Me: Nope, twice.
Camera lady: OK. I need you (as in me) to share something about the class. What have you gain from it? How is it so far? Need to take a video of it. Give you 10 minutes to prepare it. See you downstairs k.

Everything happened within seconds & I was unable to register it until Chris says “celebrity”. In my mind, I was like “Oh no. Not speaking to the camera. Not when the video will be played in the church over and over again. This is a nightmare.”

After thinking of what I wanna say, I went down, take my seat in front of the camera and started talking. But everything that I planned to say didn’t quite turn out well. My sentences were not in orders, words were repeated. I was stuttering, and after saying everything:

Camera lady: “OK good! (Which I think she said that to make me feel better). Now repeat it again”
Me: What? I can’t remember what I’ve said. It is not gonna be the same as just now.
Camera lady: Never mind. Just say.
Observer: Just share what you’ve learned from the class just now.

Then, the second shooting went on, and after everything, I felt so stupid and so embarrassed of what had just happened just now. That is not the way I want to the others to know me. The lousy guy with no substance in his sharing but with plenty of grammar errors. As I was coming home, the thought of the video playing during service over and over again to tell people about ENLI. Gosh feel like burying my head into the ground like an ostrich. What a way to end my week. A nightmare! I bet my heart will stop pumping and all my brain cells will undergo irreversible damage when the video is out. & I don't wish to be resuscitated unless they stop showing the video.